Bad Day .

[ Fuck Myself ] ~ these are the words I wanna use on myself today.

What the point of going out regularly ?

I just wanna see U, chat with U,

But in the end u ask me to go and chat with friend,

I care U,

But u dun even peduli,

Just like today case,

My fault, ok?

All also my thinking that think you won't scare.

I duno how to be a good BF !

I will know just how to make u angry,

I changed,

But You seem not particular impress,

Im not change, But you keep ask me to chg.....

One problem happen can make u in one night said many fucking words to me !

How sad am I,

I know you also dun wan agrue with me,

I know what u did is for my own good,

but ! its just a small matter,

WHY wanna make it become so complicated ??

I REALLY DUN KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO NOW ~

I AM OUT OF MY MIND..

Life ~

I think i had pass it through,

But the fact is NOT,

Sometime I do wondering,

What the point to think of my past ?

What the point I keep stuck at the same place ?

What the point I not moving on ?

There still someone cares about me,

Cry for me,

Always worrying me,

Life is just like rollercoaster,

Sometime up ~ sometimes down,

And now should I quit study ?

I do have a reason behind ~

I don't have enough budget for my next sem diploma ,

Even though now i'm working,

is still not enough wey ...

And now because of working,

My study have been worst and worst plus tired,

I making myself gonna off study,

OR

Stop think about the problem,

And just keep concentrate on education,

What should I do ?

When problem come,

I know I had to deal with it,

Just myself can decide MY own future,

I need to make a wise decision,

I do really need advice !!

Stupid Davide :-(

Enjoy :)

last nite was a enjoyable night for me,
i having a surprise celebration at 'NONO' cafe around 8.30pm,
after that we going to boom boom shake shake...
I really do enjoy my day,
but it's seem not enough as you does not celebrate with me~ LOL...
feel a little shaky, sad T.T,



I'm happy what i having now ~
but it seem like i gonna quit study soon,
i don't know about it,
i still consider it,

Let's it stop here :-(

Foolish

I'm just foolish to myself...
i'm stubborn !!
not listening people advice,
and doing it my way,
and i think it will be success,
but it's just a foolish me!

i wish there somebody that really can listen to me..
lend me the ears~
and i will tell until bottom of my heart ~
sharing  problem is the best way i can go for now ~
but who gonna help me instead?
probably NO one ~

I'm just born to be foolish & stubborn :)
This is me :)

yippi

finally I have understand it,
i really do :)
I have lost myself for the pass week,
and now i resume normal again,
I happy for what i having now,
remain the same is the best,
and i finally understand it :)
smile :)))

and .....
my feets is killing me badly,
but i can cope with it..xD
is my feets,
i can control it,
wakaka

24 May 2010

24May 2010,
today i make myself busy and busy,

wakeup at 11.32am and i missed 10.30am class,
nvm than ~~ xD
been wakeup at 8.30am actually but eventually sleep back jek... :'(
12.00 pm ~ go have lunch with friend,
after we take our lunch, a-station is our next destination .. xD
play until 2pm and rest for one hour, before going for next class...

after the class ~ we go Max-Break
played until 6.30pm.. woww~~
after that, we have our dinner at 'which one' cafe...xD
at 9pm, going to tesco... jalan - jalan :)
after that ~ a-station agn
haih....
then finally go yam cha and 2am i reach home...swt me ~~~

whole day was a busy day for me...
cause i wanna make myself busy and busy,
I just don't wanna think about you ...
i wanna to give up actually..
but reality is ~ i can't stop thinking about you~
i been fight within myself for the pass few days
i hope that i can let it go ~
but the truth is truth....
I have never been like THIS before ...
was crazy bout you & can't stop thinking bout you ~

I should enjoy my life ...
I should be positive...
I should think of a brighter side...

i wish i can~
let's hope for it ~

what a day ...

today i woke at 3pm,
so enjoy my sleep..LOL
even the hot sun can't even wake me up..xD
online awhile, bath,
4.30pm going have my 1st meal with diana wong, klien kam, and wai keat :D
we go *Choi Ley*
XD

after that, heading to ipoh :)
do something...xD
maybe it is not worth for you,
but i feel it worth for myself :)
i believe that time can change everything :)
eventhough it is a good answer or bad answer,
i will accept it...
at least i try and i have no regret... :')

feeling wanna eat choco now...xD

Drunk

Last night was my 1st time drunk ,
I don't know why ,
and
I don't want to find it out ,
we open bucket of  beer at first,
10min gone and i'm already finish two bottle of tiger ~~~
SWT me...
after that we decided to open hennessy
PROMOTION ma... xD
two bottle of it..
one bottle finish and other one still have half ..
ask the bar tender to keep for us, so next time we still can enjoy it ...xD

after that going mcd,
and guess what ?
yeah !!
i'm vomit !!
want drunk jau easy,
but when vomit is so sen fuh ...

My dear friend : i'm sorry to you all...

i always said that i'm okay, i'm okay, but fact is
i know i just lie myself,
all can i do now is just buy an eraser,
so that can help me padam all my memory,
and start a new life, :D
[let it be] [let it go] :)
i know i can do it .. :)
i must trust myself,

thank for wei keat,
for always accompany me,
when i need someone to advice me,

[ Jesus Christ, i know you always be there for everyone of us... i believe in you that you really can help me ]
AMEN ... :)))

Stay Happy For what i having now ...hehehe

moody

1.45pm now and i'm just wakeup =.=
lucky all class cancel today,
fuiyoh...XD

kinda kinda moody,
i should smile?
or
i should : | ?

when i flashback,
sometime i feel i so stupid,
LOL
Love really drive people crazy sometime,
but i never never regret,
im gald of knowing you...

I'm alright... xD

everything will change once time pass :)

Finally ~~ decision gonna make soon

for the past few days,
I been thinking how I should do,
too much to think in my mind,
after i take a step forward,
will it be the end ?
i don't know how you think,
will you have same thinking as mine?
or it just opposite?

but decision gonna make soon ~~
if i not try,
how would i know the result?
but if i try,
and the result is negatif,
then how?

i tried to be normal as usual for the past few weeks,
concern, caring ~~
i'm just stupid,
money cannot buy love,
it's the truth...

don't wanna think so much for now,
i know the decision will come to my mind soon,
stay happy all the time :)

Happy...

Last night I going back ipoh again from kampar,
This time I going to yam cha with my secondary school friends or
can said is from primary school until now we still got contact each other....
actually we decided 9.30pm yam cha de,
but since my sis need to use car so we change it to 10.30om..xD
Is about 9.33pm i start my car,
and is about 9.55pm i already reach my friend house...
so fast huh? hahaha
i also can't imagine myself...

we going to BREEZE CAFE to have out drinks,
meeting kok pin, meng fei, and yip herng...xD
after the drinks we heading to IPOH PADANG...
we have our long chatting at there... walking around there, chat non-stop...
really happy that we can share our things...
I do really hope that we can do it again,
but sadly,
my car need to add petrol again,
and i used rm30.... :P

today I stop until here ba...xD
until next time, I will update again..
TQ for reading...xD

The Endz

Date: 7th May 2010

Time: 11.22pm

After a few days insomnia,

finally i have the mood to write something at my blog,

Actually what had happen to me?

period come ah?

I'm a guy wey... no no period >_<

Monday / 3rd may : quarrel with daddy about some minor minor problem

Tuesday / 4th may : Fall down from the stair, lucky no serious injury..

Wednesday / 5th may : nothing happen..xD

Thursday / 6th may : accident...i should blame on my ownself  and quarrel with my big sis about using     car...but at last i'm kind ..i give her use

Today / 7th may : I totally no mood on today, just step from my room once that is da bou lunch for myself... >_<

CONCLUSION : I'm totally not in a good condition... :(

I do really don't know what the hell happen on me, but bless and hope next week will be brighter for me...

Mother's day coming this sunday,

what can i do?

how to celebrate?

i don't want feel anger on you

hope you happy always

take care mammy..

btw...

Apology to you that can't make you a memorable holiday trip...

you said is okay is okay...

but for me ,i do feel bad of myself ...

SORRY 

Hate insomnia...

Kraft Jr Davide Then suffering insomnia,

last night i could not fall asleep,

even though around 3am i post at FB that i going to sleep,

but i on my bed for almost 1hour and 30min,

and guess what?

i'm still awake...

i try to sleep,

but i can't sleep...

why? why this happen to me?

why must it happen on my holiday break?

when at kampar jau no this suffer...

haih,

i do really don't know why,

maybe too much problem i facing,

making me think alot > <

hope tonight can fall asleep easily.. XD

GOD bless me...amen :)

♫♪ Nobody Home ♫♪

"Nobody's Home"

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,

She felt it everyday.

And I couldn't help her,

I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.

You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.

Be strong, be strong now.

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.

She's losing her mind.

She's fallen behind.

She can't find her place.

She's losing her faith.

She's fallen from grace.

She's all over the place.

Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah 

AVRIL LAVIGNE "Nobody Home" lyrics

Inter Milan..XD

just finish watch football UEFA semifinal,
between barca vs inter milan...XD
although barca win the match by 1:0 ,
but inter are the team going to final,
with 3:2 on aggregate... :)


after this,
still got a football season ahead,
FIFA WORLD CUP 2010 man...
in june...
wow~~ busy busy football,
but i will not forget my friends ....
hehe...we enjoy together,
football is just a interest or maybe a sports that make me relax,
but importantly is FRIENDS...XD


btw,
i will not thinking about love at the moment,
love to complicated,
love is blind,
maybe i should stick what am i now,
be myself is the best,
friends is important,





Wisdom is the sharing of wise experiences and knowledge, 
but a lot of it is common sense. 
The difference is how we apply this common sense ,
we all have the ability to keep going even when we face challenges in our lives ,
basically it comes down to your attitude.
We can have a positive attitude towards life, or a negative attitude,
We can focus on the good or we can focus on the bad.
Keeping a positive mental attitude is one of the keys to success. 
The choice is always up to us!


Be happy and positive all the time,
when we facing problem,
sure GOD will help us,
trust GOD and GOD will help us




post at 5am in the morning by kraft jr davide...xD

Too much Question...!!!

for the last few days,
there have been so much questions on my mind,
i wondering what to do,
i wondering what to say,

Am i fall for you?
Am i got feel towards you?
I know i talking bullshit to myself
You already have "him",

I will not be a bad person to break you two,
I know what i gonna do,
Be strong,
Be tough,
[Davide]

I don't wanna think so much about this problem now,
I just wanna be clown for everyone,
making them happy,
seeing them happy,

Gonna delete those question in my mind forever and ever...xD

My quotes : Enjoy while we still young [club club club] LOL

post by hometown boy [Kraft Jr Davide] :)

Ipoh home

Date: 27/4/2010
Time: 12.43am


yeap, me at ipoh home now,
going to sleep soon,
before that update blog sin,
almost 3days don't have update it... xD

Last friday went to club again, guess where?
ofcoz BARROOM ... xD
reach there bout 10.35pm and having our dinner at somewhere around there :)
we having fun there as it was last club for sem3...lolx
gonna stop clubbing for 3weeks ><
No one is drunk on last friday, as we din drink much..hohoho ^^
we dance,
we play,
we enjoy,
here is a snapshot of some of the photo...xD

Ipoh days now,
gonna ask my ipoh pal hang together...xD
really miss my secondary school friends,
steven, simon, kok leong, yip herng and bla bla bla...xD

I will treasure this 3weeks break to accompany my grandpa [suffering half strok] to make him happy every day.. =D
I will now have the time to have a long chat with my daddy again...xD
I will now have the time to concern my young bro and young sis... :)

i'm gonna miss kampar,
i'm gonna miss kampar friend,
see you all on sem4 =DD

4gb memory card...xD coming soon :)


post by sleepy Davide ... xD

Sem break start ...

Date: 23/4/2010
Time: 4.34am
[can't sleep so udpate my blog now] xD


sem break started,
actually last friday my sem break start already,
because last friday was my last paper, =D
but i stay at kampar play for one week sin, xD
after tomorrow my sem break officialy start as i heading back to ipoh,
meet my grandpa, grandmom, daddy, young bro and young sis,
at that time my big sis still sitting for her exam,
so wish her good luck ...xD

what I gonna do as my 3 week holiday start?
wondering work part time, but so hard to find a part timer job,
usually they hired full timer..haih,
need some help from ipoh friend jor..xD

or should i don't work and go for holiday?
maybe go JB?
and i think maybe singapore?
I got passport,so no no worry..
hahaha..

still thinking how...T.T

gonna stop clubbing for 3week..xD

READ THIS SCARY STORY IF YOU DARE

nothing to do..xD...i'm share some joke to you all =DD



READ THIS SCARY STORY IF YOU DARE.
On a rainy day,
an old man was standing with a book for sale.
A young man came to buy.
He bought the book for RM3000.
Old man advised
“DONT OPEN LAST PAGE OF THE BOOK othrwise YOU’ll face problem”
Man finished the book with great fear but didnt open the last page.
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.
.
But,after a week,
Out of curiousity he opend the last page and..

he almost fainted to see..
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Retail Price: RM 30/-

only four people...

Date: 21/4/2010
Time: 9.50pm
( updating my blog) xD

actually by this time I shouldn't updating blog,
but should already at barroom front door,

thought tonight will have a fun and relax night,
but since just four people only,
we decided not to go then,
many friend already back hometown,
haih :(

so,
we postpone this activities to friday night,
special thanks to fishy mui,
who arrange this..
LOL..xD

so we gonna wait till friday...
but at kampar so boring,
don't know can do wat ...swt~~

myself ..lolx

When I got enough confidence,
The stage was gone.

When I was sure of losing,
I won.

When I needed people the most,
They left me.

When I learnt to dry my tears,
I found a shoulder to cry on.

When I mastered the skill of hating,
Somebody started loving me.

that’s Life!!!!
enjoy life…..!
treasure what we having...xD

long long time ago...

Date: 20/4/2010
Time: 6.56pm
(updating my blog while my mom is here)


It been a long long time ago i don't have meet my mom..
but should I feel happy when saw her?
i don't have that feeling lo,
but when I saw her so thin aldy, i started to worry her,

the story begin,
when i was 7years old,
she left me, my young bro, young sis, big sis, daddy, grandpa and grandmom,
and the reason is because always bergaduh with my dad,
so complicated the adult,

i do hate,
wondering WHY she leave us by that time?
but as time pass, i do recover,
and i don't want to think of her again,

i have no contact with her,
but my big sis jau have contact with her,
i keep telling to myself why i can't forgive her,
is just the truth that she left us ,

today (20/4/2010),
my mom come kampar,
my big sis not at home,
so i need to teman (mom)
i just have a few words with her and i ask her go sleep,
i do really don't what i can chat with her,

CONFUSIING .....

I know it is not good for a son treat mom like that,
but I just can't

what should I do?

Date: 19/4//2010
Time: 2.37am
What am I doing? >> updating BLOG

Its seem that I always ignored by people,
What I done,
What I say,
Just like a left ear in, right ear out for them,
or even no response from them

I beginning to wondering izzit myself too much thinking or what .....
I'm started to feel that I being foolish by people,
playing by people,
maybe I should hide myself deep into the rubbish BIN,
so that no one will see me or heard from me,

Maybe I should disappear from them for my own good?

CONFUSING >.<

I Gotta Go My Own Way

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try somehow the plan
is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place
in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way


What about us?
What about everything we've been through?


What about trust?


you know I never wanted to hurt you


and what about me?


What am I supposed to do?


I gotta leave but I'll miss you


I'll miss you


so
I've got to move on and be who I am


Why do you have to go?


I just don't belong here
I hope you understand


I'm trying to understand


We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now


I want you to stay


I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

What about us?


I just don't belong here
I hope you understand


I'm trying to understand


We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

Club again...

yes...
I go to club again..
last night was a happy night...
I almost drunk but at last don't have drunk...
just weng weng only...xD

I feel myself so stupid ..
keep giving friend smoke..
SMOKE is not good for health,
I don't want them to be a habit of it,
but since is clubbing, just wanna all of them happy and relax..
so decided give them..

I want get out from smoke..
but I just can't,
hope somebody can tell me advice or somebody can help me get rid out of it...

but seriously sometime smoke can let or pressure off...

Today a busy day for ME !!

Date: 16/4/2010
Time: 11.57pm
[updating my latest blog =)]


today is a very busy day for me,
after exam fetch friend go ipoh for something important,
around 8pm we reach kampar,
after I finish my bath, i thought can rest and have a nice time to on9,
but still wanna go to ipoh at 9pm..
bring my friend go Ipoh for buy really some important stuff...xD

hahaha,
I'm the driver for today,
I'm too kind already... xD hohoho
so tired today,i can feel my left leg shaky,
because my car is manual ma... LOL

kinda tired now but need go yam cha with friend later...=D

tomorrow going for barroom,
but before that early in the morning need go back ipoh to celebrate grandpa and grandmon birthday,
wow~~~ then after celebrate need come back kampar again...
after that go ipoh for clubbing ,
after that go back kampar,

wah....
in two days, go ipoh for four times..hahaha
who can help me drive, so tired er...
wish my car is auto..LOL

GOT TO GO for yam cha le...
bye bye ~~~

have a nice day all my friend =D

post my leng chai kraft =DD

Decision made...

Date: 16/4/2010
Time: 5.00am


I just finish study and i'm now updating my blog,
almost 76percent go in brain aldy...xD
hmmm...

decision make,
friday no go clubbing,
since so few people so i decided not to go... =D
be a guai guai boy at kampar,

saturday is a big day for my family =D
celebrate grandpa and grandmon birthday,
i think my grandpa almost 70age and grandmon 67,
gonna discuss with cousin on what present to give them...xD

if you all are reading this,
kindly give a suggestion on what gift would suitable for them..
thx ya...xD

got one thing is sad,
is my grandpa,
who suffering half stroke since 2years ago,
can't move, can't talk,
hope he will happy on this saturday...=)

Miss THEM...

study study...+U+U davide

bye bye...

post by kraft xD

Go or no go?

Time: 7.33pm
Date: 15 April 2010
(updating my blog) xD


This coming Friday how? Go club or stay at kampar...
haven decide yet because maybe not much people go...
I want to go because this coming friday is my last paper jor and I wish to relax...
I ask people around and seem like no decision yet,
If they don't wanna go it is fine with me..
stay at kampar also a good idea,
yc also can..xD

sometimes I think of myself,
am I too greedy?
am I too childish?
am I always forcing people?

If could please tell me and I'm gonna change
I will try my best...xD

about myself,

sometimes I too hyper active,
sometimes I too diam,
sometimes I can sit on my chair and looking at the sky, wondering my future,
and
sometime I could even can don't eat for a whole day..

I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHY...

wakakaka...
maybe I'm crazy?

maybe...


okok..stop at here liao
Got To Go aldy

dinner time come...LAM KEI..wow~~~

post by me( kraft )

Exam tomorrow and I still playing...

Time: 11.28pm
Date: 13 April 2010
Venue: friend house
What I doing? : updating my blog..xD

exam tomorrow, 11.28pm now and I still playing with my friends...>.< , something that a student should not do when exam time but I'm disobey it..xD ...

last night I sleep at 6am and guess what, I wake up at 11am this morning...because friends ask for lunch so I force to wake up..xD... we had our lunch at seng yip and that included me, ah fei, ben sin, eugene, and the tallest among us sing hao...xD ...we eat 'zhap choi fan' lol..hope you all understand.. =D ..at first I also don't know but when I look at my dish, it seem that no meat at all...all is vege, so today I be a vegetrian at my lunch lolx!!...

after lunch, I wanted back home for on9 or maybe even study if I have the mood...but they keep ask for 'da gei' , something I would like to do but don't wanna do at that time...but at last I go with them < A station > ...half way we playing , there was rain heavily outside...after the rain stop, we back home..hohoho

when back home I sure on9 FB...lolx and suddenly think about sushi sushi..wow..I want I want...xD...at nite we have our dinner at mango...we eat, we enjoy our dinner...
as soon back home, on9 agn...lol...when will I start studying? anyone help me?

give me some advice..hehehe

post by me
enjoy ~~

one down..two to go =D

one paper..two more paper to ho..xD

my exam start at 2pm, a time that i hate the most because that time so many sweat is coming out from my body...lucky today my sis no use car then i decided to drive to school..xD

I wakeup at 12.35pm, lucky today test is BM, so no need to read many coz I'm "ok" in BM ma.. lol =D ..."lan ha lan ha" at bed, brush teeth and bath as usual...after that go out to have a lunch with my friend wai keat...we have our lunch at tin xin yuen and i order wan tan mee but not nice de..dun like !! after that go school for exam...on the way , saw a always happy couple eugene and rebbeca >> wanna to dump them ,don't wan fetch them de..but I kind me..xD

bad moment start as I doing my essay my stomach pain and then ask for go toilet but the people in-charge hold the time as I so pain ...keep asking me do idoit thing such as check my shoe, things at pocket all take out and even ask me left my wallet at the hall..haha...no worries wor, I sure no cheat de ma..xD

after exam I pei my friend go "mou jiu pan" eat ( beside and beside just to eat)..we have a nice chat there as we even play during eat..lol mr.raj so cham can't go back home even finish eat...wai keat stop him from leave as wanted he wait until we all finish eat..hahaha...and we chat and laugh together...xD...after that we go back home and the first thing that I do when back home is on9..lol

lucky we all back early as suddenly the sky turn black and have a heavy rain..damm nice because that time was so HOT indeed.. o.o

the next exam will be at this wednesday and friday..so gambateh my friend...

BYE ~~

westlake !! xD

Date:12th April 2010
Time:4.00am
Venue: Westlake
Friends involve: me,ben,mouse,diana,klien,ah fei and dun left out chatting non-stop wai keat..
xD


Just come back from westlake...after dinner at vegas, actually we decided to do our revision for tomorrow exam which is BM but MOUSE saying on fb that she no mood study..that word make us so desire to go westlake...we haven been there for almost a month =D ..at 11.45pm we went to kwik stop to buy some snack and drink before heading to WL xD ...we having a great time at there as we play, laugh, telling joke and also chat about our appearence at "white party" last friday ^^

As we having our conversation, suddenly we hear a kancil cross by with a loud bass and we know that is wai keat...finally he arrive..=) as soon he arrive , he play joke by acting wanna go jump sea..LOL ..funny man...

Time pass so fast as I see the time is 3.30am le...cannot imagine we have been there for almost 3hours..xD..never try before ^^.. after that we going ghany yc..we chat there and watch horror movie presented by ghany.. woww~~ben as usual order ayam goreng and horlick ais << his jiu pai lolx!! as time reach 4am, we heading back home and I'm update my 1st blog..xD

Time to sleep...have a nice sleep and dream all my friends..
Good Night xD